Goodbye.

I want to personally thank you for changing me ... in EVERY way possible. You've made me a stronger person, on the inside & out, you've made me learn to never put up with any guys bullshit because i deserve better, you protect me, care for me, cherish me, you've caused me to experience the weakest moments in my life & best moments that I'd never replace. You've shown me what it really means to love unconditionally. I guess that's why it kills me to let you go after all this time. You've caused me to become less vulnerable, which isn't all that great. I will never be able to fully trust, love, & share my feelings without being cautious. I doubt every word that any guy says to me. Part of me wants to hate you for putting me through all of this... the uncertainty, instability, & taking away my ability to fully fall for anyone else. I guess, in a way, my accomplishments that I have made now are a result of everything you have put me through. The more i hurt, the harder i put all my energy into one certain aspect of my life to try & erase you. Now, look at me... 19 years old, entering Nursing school.. i guess that's a little of what i've always wanted though... to get out of college, marry young, & have children. I guess i'm writing this as a way of letting go... letting go of you & trying to rebuild myself so that I am able to have a healthy relationship with someone in the future... But that's the thing, i don't know if i WANT a relationship with someone else anymore, too much drama, too much risk... to get hurt again. Maybe, one day we will meet on a path down this road in life, just know that i am & always will be here for you... i have been for 6 years. Goodbye.

How should i know.

If it feels so right
Feels safe and sound
How can the sky be falling down
If it's all good love
Two good hearts
How can we fall so far apart

How can hearts be breaking in the middle of the night
How can strings come unwound when they've held so tight
On the ride down this road if it's time, time to let go
Tell me, how should I know

If we're still on fire
The burn's still there
Why can't we find flames anywhere
If the sun still shines
No sign of rain
How come nothing's quite the same

How can hearts be breaking in the middle of the night
How can strings come unwound when they've held so tight
On the ride down this road if it's time, time to let go
Tell me, how should I know

Can't help but think
I'll find the answer
Is lying right there next to her

How can hearts be breaking in the middle of the night
How can strings come unwound when they've held so tight
Hearts break, that's how it goes
Tie the strings, no and don't let go
'Cause love tells me

How can hearts be breaking in the middle of the night
How can strings come unwound when they've held so tight
Hearts break, that's how it goes
Tie the strings, no and don't let go
'Cause love tells me
That's how I know

Love tells me