Goodbye.

I want to personally thank you for changing me ... in EVERY way possible. You've made me a stronger person, on the inside & out, you've made me learn to never put up with any guys bullshit because i deserve better, you protect me, care for me, cherish me, you've caused me to experience the weakest moments in my life & best moments that I'd never replace. You've shown me what it really means to love unconditionally. I guess that's why it kills me to let you go after all this time. You've caused me to become less vulnerable, which isn't all that great. I will never be able to fully trust, love, & share my feelings without being cautious. I doubt every word that any guy says to me. Part of me wants to hate you for putting me through all of this... the uncertainty, instability, & taking away my ability to fully fall for anyone else. I guess, in a way, my accomplishments that I have made now are a result of everything you have put me through. The more i hurt, the harder i put all my energy into one certain aspect of my life to try & erase you. Now, look at me... 19 years old, entering Nursing school.. i guess that's a little of what i've always wanted though... to get out of college, marry young, & have children. I guess i'm writing this as a way of letting go... letting go of you & trying to rebuild myself so that I am able to have a healthy relationship with someone in the future... But that's the thing, i don't know if i WANT a relationship with someone else anymore, too much drama, too much risk... to get hurt again. Maybe, one day we will meet on a path down this road in life, just know that i am & always will be here for you... i have been for 6 years. Goodbye.